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August 2026 My brain excels at recognizing patterns and weaving disparate threads together. The patterns I weave are influenced and therefore also limited by the patterns I already know, but something has shifted in me between the last two full moons and I understand now in an embodied way that the work my brain does is old, and that I can feel my ancestors in it, guiding me, opening doors I had not noticed, calling my attention to details I had not seen, and helping me start

July 2026 Last year I was alone for a few days at the cabin and I went fully crazy. Now I'm alone here again and the person I was then is barely recognizable to me. I have finally started to figure out who I am when I'm alone with myself and how to actually live instead of just survive and I've never been more proud of myself or more sure of the path I'm on. It is outrageous that it took this long for me to get here, but the peace I feel at my center now is unprecedented and

February 2026 I started teaching high school math nineteen years ago, in February of 2007. Just before the start of the 2022 - 2023 school year, in a state of burnout caused by the combined trauma of having to be the public face of major changes to the math curriculum that made some very privileged people very angry, the whole shitshow of the Covid pandemic and remote learning, and a series of personal crises, I moved to the Cape to teach middle school math for a year. I requ

August 2025 One year ago, I realized that I have aphantasia, meaning I have no mental imagery, something true of only about 4% of the population. It was pretty world-shaking for me to realize that my whole life I'd assumed that what was true for me was true of everyone, in spite of knowing intellectually that generalizing one's personal experience is highly problematic. Recent years have been incredibly challenging for me both personally and professionally, and this was the f